Upper Rooms

Work-in-progress: Grow lettering



Here’s a peek of the lettering piece I finished a few days ago. I’m happy that the light cream color of the paper came out in the scan. Also, I had accidentally dropped a loaded brush on it when I had literally just finished it, so I had to edit it out digitally. Other than that, everything is done by hand! I’ll be posting the whole piece next week when it comes out on Thinkie Tank.

Other things
1. I don’t recommend watching Mood Indigo in the morning.

2. All the holidays happening every other workday has screwed up my routine and my momentum. The long weekend just started and all I can think about is all the sideline work I have to get done by next week.

3. And lastly, a little reminder from Satsuki Shibuya.



Sometimes I feel myself falling into the trap of stressing over making things to get other people’s validation, just so I can feel I’m getting somewhere or that my work is something significant. The thing is I guess I was never one who was super comfortable with making stuff for no reason or purpose, wala lang in Filipino, and so sometimes when I feel that my work doesn’t connect with other people, it kind of bothers me. It’s not that I don’t enjoy working on stuff for fun, because I do, but it’s not my main goal because after a while it feels indulgent for me. One of my success indicators with my work—design or illustration or crafts—is when I get to connect with other people with what I make, even just on a very basic level. I’m happy when I work on things I personally like, but I’m happier when other people get to share in it, too, or if they find my work useful.

On a slightly different note, I think being around creative people all the time is affecting how I work also, because sometimes I get a bit too conscious of their reaction to the things I come up with. Like, if I feel that the people I admire or if my friends don’t pay attention to my work, it gets to me sometimes. And I need to snap out of it! Because I don’t want my work to be highly dependent on that kind of attention. I need to stop defining my own standards by other people’s standards. I’ve been thinking about why this is affecting me now, when I used to not care about it before. I guess I feel that I’ve worked pretty hard to get to where I am now, and I value it so much I get scared sometimes thinking of whether this is going to be something sustainable or not. I guess I need to realign my perspective and work towards making good stuff, not necessarily popular stuff. The right people will come, they say, so maybe I just need to be patient, and work quietly and with joy. :)

OK, break time is over! Cheers for the long weekend!

Sketchbook: grumpy ladies


Channeling my inner Daniel Egneus, but what do I know about fashion illustration, really. Also testing new materials in between work. These include A) a kolinsky brush, which still intimidates me and sometimes I kind of feel dumb just holding it haha. And B) a couple of Holbein watercolor tubes in shell pink and payne’s gray. I’ve read a lot of good reviews of this brand, and I’m convinced! A little goes a long way, which makes it worth the price, and I like the color range.